last few hours...

So here I am, closing in on the last few hours of being in my twenties...tomorrow I will turn the ripe age of THIRTY. The number used to scare me. It sounded too grown up... too old! There was a time I forever wanted to live a young and carefree life. 9 months ago, I had a very specific plan on what to do for my thirtieth birthday... it was so easy. I was planning to get a second tattoo commemorating my entrance into adulthood/womanhood. Of course, it didn't quite turn out that way, as it probably is NOT a good idea to get poked with needles while waiting to give birth at any given day! Sure, I'm a little disappointed (I will end up getting that second tat one day!) but I realized I don't need permanent ink on my body to mark my adulthood. I was forced to grow up when I became a young mother 10 years ago. I don't need a tattoo to see how grown up I am, as a new homeowner with a mortgage I certainly feel like an adult. I know I've blossomed into a woman as I carry life inside me and await to give birth for a 3rd time. So no longer will I be scared of turning 30, I will embrace it. How could I not when I have so much to look foward to? I can't wait to see and meet my second daughter for the first time, or bring my little guy to school on his first day of kindergarten. By the end of the year I could possibly (and finally!)become the wife to the love of my life. And can you believe that my eldest will be turning double digits in December? Bring on the pre-teens!!! With all these changes in my life, on turning 30... I am an adult and mature woman. I guess there's no denying it anymore...there's only one last thing to do...... someone pass the driver's manual, I need to get my license!!!!

Home Sweet Home

It's been about a month and half since we've settled into life up north, and it's still hard to believe that we are officially homeowners. We all have our routines down pack... I know exactly what time to leave the house to make my Go train, (5:37am, as I do more of a waddle than a walk to the station) Benjoe knows the exact route to take to go to Grandpa's house, (he'll yell at you when he knows you've taken the wrong turn) Euge knows which streets will take him from Stouffville into Scarborough the fastest (factoring in lights and speed limits) and Hannah hasn't skipped a beat when getting ready in the morning. (Only difference is that she doesn't have time to watch TV while waiting to be dropped off at school) The kids (especially Hannah) love that we are in our place. Eugene will always get a call from Hannah on his days off asking when he's going to pick her up, if she doesn't have to hang out at grandpa's, she won't want to. She makes her bed everyday in anticipation of her weekly allowance, it goes along with her other chores she's assigned like helping her brother brush his teeth and clearing off the kitchen table. Benjoe has been quite good at sleeping in his own room with the occasional night he'll crawl into our bed. Right now I don't mind it too much, being pregnant has made me a little attached to the little guy and sort of misses him bunking with us like before. The first few weeks we were here, I really took pride in our home, always tidying and making sure the house was clean. It has gotten a little difficult lately with the size of my growing belly, it will take me at least 45 mins to do the dishes now as I need a 5 min break after every 3 dishes. (It's not easy hunching over the sink with this belly!) I've been lucky enough over the past couple of weekends that my mother and my mother in law came over for a visit and ended up helping me with some household chores. Our home doesn't really have a "sense of style" as it is more functional for us than anything. As we're on new development, we can't wait for the builders to put in the grass, we're so tired of hopping around the mud on rainy days. I'm also sure it would be nice for Euge to bbq in the backyard than in the garage. We know we may be a little far for people to come for a visit, but we do love our home and excited for our first "party" coming up in a couple of weeks.